Hi.....
There is a lot of questions are running in my head. Sometimes, i try to stop thinking, but i always failed to do that. Perhaps, i yearn too much for a chance to make things looking good before i go (one day, in His moment). And then i am tired to pass this life, because i lost the spirit of joy to enjoy a good process from Him. It feels so deeply hurtful, when i try to communicate this love for them. Why they can not understand what i mean?
In some past nights, i found my self so confused about how it would be if my time is up. How those whom I loved know that i love them so much, if they never understand my tears in a prayer in many nights just for them. I cry out to the Lord for answering me what i have to do like i have no time anymore to do something for them.
Friends, I really know that we have to love with unconditional love. But in fact, as a human, I don’t think this is really could happen in someone life. Because we need take and give, including in loving someone. This is not an easy way for me. How long I have to wait for their response? How long i have to struggle for thinking the best for their life? Could they can changed someday?
Yeah, that is my current feeling. And then I remember this song.
He can't remember
The times that he thought
Does my daddy love me?
Probably not
That didn't stop him
From wishing that he did
Didn't keep him from wanting
Or worshipping him
He guesses he saw him
About once a year
He could still feel the way he felt
Standing in tears
Stretching his arms out
As far as they'd go
Whispering daddy
I want you to know
[Chorus:]
I love you this much
And i'm waiting on you
To make up your mind
Do you love me too?
How ever long it takes
I'm never giving up no matter what
I love you this much
He grew to hate him for what he had done
'cause what kind of father
Could do that to his son?
He said 'damn you daddy'
The day that he died
The man didn't blink
But the little boy cried
(Chorus)
The times that he thought
Does my daddy love me?
Probably not
That didn't stop him
From wishing that he did
Didn't keep him from wanting
Or worshipping him
He guesses he saw him
About once a year
He could still feel the way he felt
Standing in tears
Stretching his arms out
As far as they'd go
Whispering daddy
I want you to know
[Chorus:]
I love you this much
And i'm waiting on you
To make up your mind
Do you love me too?
How ever long it takes
I'm never giving up no matter what
I love you this much
He grew to hate him for what he had done
'cause what kind of father
Could do that to his son?
He said 'damn you daddy'
The day that he died
The man didn't blink
But the little boy cried
(Chorus)
Half way through the service
While the choir sang a hymn
He looked up above the preacher
And he sat and stared at him
He said
'forgive me father'
When he realized
That he hadn't been unloved
Or alone all his life
His arms were stretched out
As far as they'd go
Nailed to the cross
For the whole world to know
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