i feel like crying...

ku memilih jalan ini...

the word "SORRY" can't replace what i have done n i've wasted..

Sedih bgt,,ktik seseorang berubah..

sedih..

n hany bisa menangis..

ap krn kepurtusanku yg begitu cepat??

salahkh aku??

Sekarang aku cuma bisa menyalahkan diriku sendiri..tanpa tau alasannya..

sekarang aku cuma sedih dlm kesalahanku..tidak ad yg mengingatkanku n menegurku...

bahkan saat ini pun aku merasa TUHAN sedang berdiam diri terhadapku..

bhkn dlm stiap doaku,,,,ku membiarkan mataku basah..


Tuhan....ku perlu Kau, Tuhan ..

Anytime God is about to take you to a new level you’re going to face opposition. There will be new battles to fight and new obstacles to overcome. It’s easy to get discouraged and think, “Why is this happening?” But we have to change our thinking and focus on the fact that on the other side of those challenges is a new level of victory—a new level of success. David would only be known as a shepherd boy if it weren’t for Goliath. David’s enemy became the tool that God used to promote him. And God will do the same in your life today. He’ll use those challenges and difficulties in your life to catapult you towards success! If you are going through a hard time today, if things look impossible, don’t give up now.

Change your perspective and believe that God is working behind the scenes. Put a smile on your face and stand in confidence knowing that you are a child of the Most High God. When all is said and done, you’re not just going to come out of that difficulty, but you’re coming out stronger, wiser, and better than you were before! That problem is going to be the catalyst for God to open supernatural doors of opportunity for you! Stand strong in the Lord today and trust that what the enemy meant for your harm, God will turn around and use to your advantage. He’ll take you places you never dreamed and cause you to rise higher and higher in every area of your life!

Mengawali hari ini dengan kontak doa Pengurus PDO Sehati dan menikmati hadiratNYA dalam saat teduhku.
Tenang n damai yang kurasakn..
Dan saya pun tersadar dengan tanggal ini, ternyata sudah 3 bulan perjalananku dengan kekasihku..umur yang masih sangat muda untuk suatu hubungan...
akan banyak hal yang kami hadapi ke depan..
saya menyadari bahwa perjalanan ini akan trus ada jika kami trus berjuang...
Walau saat ini, kami berada jauh beribu-ribu mil..*Jehovah Jireh*
awalny saya merasa takut, ketika meliat dia harus tau akan kondisi orangtuaku yang blum bisa menerimanya karena perbedaan suku..
Meliat pribadi saya, penerimaan akan diri sendiri dan penerimaan orang lain untuk menjadi bagian hidupku...


"Kenapa dia ya???"


selama 3 bulan ini, saya berusaha untuk menemukan setiap jawaban-jawaban atas pertanyaan tersebut...

Dari hal baru inilah, saya banyak belajar untuk menghargai pribadinya dari masa lalunya, sifatnya, kekurangan, kelebihannya. 

Belajar untuk menerima pribadinya dengan apa adanya, tanpa meliat status keluarga, kondisi keluarga, ekonomi keluarganya, asal usulnya. 

Belajar trus berusaha mempercayai dirinya. Allah mengirimkannya agar kami saling mendukung dalam setiap kondisi kami dengan pergumulan yang berbeda.*saya dalam kondisi menantikan panggilan hidup, dan dia yang sedang berjuang dalam tugas akhirnya*

Belajar untuk saling mengerti akan kesibukkan masing2..

Bersabar dalam setiap pergumulan, bahkan saat ini yg menjalani hubungan jarak jauh...

Saling menguatkan di kala yang satu mengalami kelemahan

.....i wil find it...

Saya cuma bisa berdoa pada Tuhan agar hubungan ini boleh menjadi berkat bagi kami secara pribadi dan orang lain,,,dan memberkati buat langkah-langkah selanjutnya...

Time, look where we are and what we've been through

Time, sharing our dreams

thank you for wonderful three months

thankyou for always being my man

happy threemonths darling

love you much,:)

 Nb : sebuah sms  yang dikirim olehnya :
 " Thanks yah dah ngasi aq kesempatan. Aq akan akhiri dgn terus berjuang untukmu dan bersamamu. Luv u.."

Long distance relationship is the hardest yet the most fulfilling type of relationship.

One Universe. Seven Galaxies. Twelve Planets. One Earth. Hundreds of countries. Thousands of cities. Billions of people. To find the person, who will truly love you; whom you will love is a dream come true. It’s an answered prayer. But how if you met him but in a very complicated situation? How if he is thousands of miles away? Will you survive it? Will you survive a LONG DISTANCE RELATIONSHIP?

Is it easy? NO! Never, it is. Is it worth it? TOTALLY!

Long distance relationship. We have to admit it, it`s not easy. When you get into this kind of relationship, you must be MENTALLY prepared. You have to set in your mind how the situation will be. You must also win over temptations. There are times you will be tempted to cheat, to lie, so you must have the capability to control.Emotionally as well, it`s hard. You must not let your emotion take over you. Control. Control. Control. Readiness in physical terms. In LDR, sometimes, you have to sacrifice some things just to make time for your sweetheart. This usually happens to those couples who fell into different timezones. Missing the friends get-together so you would just stay home and talk to your partner. Sacrifice even the sleeping time. It’s really a long list of compilation. And because of the distance, you must know how to understand the situation, you can`t have the sweet bonding moments that lovers usually do. No chances to date. No chances to walk in the park while watching the sunset. No chances to eat together. No chances to watch movies together. No chances to go to beaches together. No kisses. No hugs. Nothing… Nothing but WORDS! But these words, especially when sincere, mean more than to those stuffs. Chat. Chat. Chat. Text messages, especially when unexpected mean a lot. Communication. This is the bridge that connects the two of you. They can make your day complete by doing so. So make it a habit, “One SMS a day, makes the sadness go away”.

One of the important ingredients of a LDR, PATIENCE. Patient in many ways. To wait for him to online, to be home from work or from school so you can talk. Even though you are his lover, it doesn’t mean his life is all for you, sometimes, you must be understanding that he needs to study, to spend time with his family and friends.

Support him and let him know you trust him. And lastly, be patient to wait for you to meet and be together in the future. Remember, great things come to those who wait. Without patience, LDR is in danger. We have no escape from longing to be with them, just be patiently wait, and in the end, you will be glad you did. FUTURE...

Plan for your future. If you really love him, you must make him feel that you want to spend the rest of your life with him and that you want to grow old together. Set future plans. Talk about family. But when you promise something, make sure you’ll keep it forever. Just like how this promise goes… NO MATTER HOW FAR WE MAY BE, YOU ARE ALWAYS CLOSE TO MY HEART.

Long distance relationship is like a letter W. It goes down, up, down but in the end, it goes up. It’s not easy, but if you are heart to heart, if it’s true love, no doubt, it will work. :) Set your goals. Give time and effort. Show love and care. Risk and fight for your love, eventhough there are people who are against the two of you, be brave to when everything is rough and tough. Stand up if you fall. And lastly, make God the center of your relationship. All these combined, you will have a long distance relationship that works. All the best to all of you. Distance never seperates two hearts that are loyal to one another. Long distance is just a test how far love can travel.

DISTANCE IS TEMPORARY, TRUE LOVE IS NOT. :) ♥